I was so nervous
I was so stupid
I was so careless
I was so rash
I was so annoyed with my self
I was so wrong
and I held back my tears so hardly
Until today I’ve been so down
Yesterday, a friend chatted on WA group and I was so surprised…
“temen labku dimarahi sensei waktu seminar, abis seminar dy pulang. looks like he’s crying”
“yg kutangkep, intinya: `masa hal kayak gini d presentasikan di meeting, ditanya ini ga bisa jawab, ditanya itu ga bisa jawab` tp si bocahnya emang salah sih”
Wow, so similar with my experience last thursday.
Than I asked my friend “How are that friend doing now? Is he alright now?”
“abis dimarahi dia keluar
sorenya uda balik lagi
nangis terus move on”
Maybe I should do that too. Instead holding back tears and pretending to be okay, pretending to be strong… maybe all I have to do now is crying.
Sometimes, crying is the best thing to do, instead of running away.
Crying then moving on… I made mistake, and continuing making mistakes when I run away…